and yes, sometimes, my titles seem to have little to nothing to do with my entry. but my entries aren't usually specific anyway. my entries go over the general bases, usually of my everydays -nods- i'm explaining myself when no explanation is needed. i think it's an Asian thing to explain too much. it's a stereotype that Asians go into lengthy explanations for almost everything. and yes, it really is a stereotype. and i fit that stereotype. of course, you already knew that, right? mm.
 

hah, i'm consistent at inconsistency.


oh, and Chinese dairy farms suck.. 6,200 babies sick.. at least 4 dead..

so don't take anything i say too personally or deeply or whatever. i'm just saying what i think.

i've been debating since yesterday night if i should write something about Nick Sanders. not really my place to write about him. i didn't know him (i just remember seeing him around ST last year). just knew that he was supposed to be a junior at ST this year.
 

ahh, ok. that's it. really tired now. got work to do. and sleep to catch up on. woo.

but oh! Eda sent me an invitation on FB to her birthday dinner on Saturday! aye! same night and time as the dinner that Alex invited me to DX i want to go to both! what should i do?? birthday or farewell dinner???? crap. this feels like a moral dilemma. maybe they can combine the dinners :D that would be very convenient (not a nice word, imo, but i can't think of a better word that would be less, i dunno, selfish?)

anyway, not much else has been happening lately. haven't really chilled with people. talked to a few but not many. so i really do hope i get to go to Red Robin with people. never been there before too. so hmm....

oh, did "Entering the Scene" scenes haha. woo, not bad on my part :) and lemme just say this stuff before i forget. there's one girl, Alyssa, who was pretty smokin haha.... she was a business woman for her scene, and she dressed up for the part. you know, the business look. but she had on a red skirt. she put her hair up and wore glasses. just very hott.... haha.... and she was good at acting too :)

and her partner in the scene was Camilla. i was thinking "why does her face look so familiar? maybe she reminds me of a celebrity. hmm, that must be it. but who?" i sat thinking for like ten seconds. and then it hit me. Piper Perabo! the one who was in Coyote Ugly, Lost and Delirious, Imagine Me & You. oh yeah, i can definitely see it. mm.

i'm sure there were other revelations about people in school. but i don't remember them. but seriously i keep seeing a lot of people who remind me of someone (celebrity or someone i know). or i feel like i've seen them somewhere other than at school.

mm, yeah. oh, and i can't believe i missed the premiere of House MD. i totally forgot. damn it. i'll just watch the show online as usual haha.

alright, that's all. and one day, i will update, i will not feel like i forgot to mention something. mm hmm.

so i stayed up to 2 in the morning today to finish my rough draft for English. but when i reread my green sheet, it didn't mention a rough draft. it mentioned working drafts -__- baka. whatever. i'll have to work on my working draft tonight then, since it's due tomorrow.

 

ok, gotta eat something. just noticed i was hungry. then do homework and whatnot. hopefully sleep early. i will stop working by midnight. i need sleep. seriously.

is that no one sees you crying when you talk to them..... they don't see how much their words really get to you. and they won't see the pain you're feeling.

that's good. i don't want people to feel bad for what they say to me, especially if there was no intention of hurting me whatsoever. especially if their intention was to make me feel better.


mm, so tomorrow, i'm going to be a research study participant for a bit and then go to the Comm Lab to get started on my outlining module to get that out of the way. so i don't know when i'll be home.

i should update less. i've just been updating so often because of the start-of-college feeling. but once that passes, i'll update less because of time constraints of course.

anyway, that's it. i was going to say more, but i should just finish my hwk and go to bed. and let this heaviness in my chest subside.. it really is heavy..

tomorrow is Free Hugs Day! yay! i don't know if i'll participate though. too nervous to do it alone. and i'd get weird stares because i'm the kid who doesn't do much and doesn't talk to people haha.... mm, we'll see if i give out Free Hugs.

if i do, maybe i'll actually hug more strangers this year hahaha.... last year, i think there was one acquaintance. everyone else was a friend or at least just someone i knew well enough to hug. i wonder if anyone else on the SJSU campus will give out free hugs :) i wonder if people know what it is haha....

but yeah, don't really wanna do this alone :( though, i was basically alone in it last year too haha. ahh. i need to put myself out there. just do it. hmm, i wonder where my Free Hugs shirt went....

hmm, i talked to Tiffany today after we got off the light rail at Paseo de San Antonio. she has seen a lot of people from ST. i haven't. i've seen her, Justina, Lisa, Lisa's friend Amy, and Kilani. and oh i saw Justin Farrales (sp?) through the window of my English class haha. that's about it. anyway, Tiff and i talked a bit about classes before we parted ways.

then i spoke a tiny bit to Kilani. classes in the same building. she was going to Public Speaking. when she asked me, i said "same here." though, i don't know why. i had English first haha. i think i had today mixed up with yesterday (frickin Mondays and Tuesdays can be so confusing) XP

in English, we went over the essay prompt. ok, i am glad that i am not the only person in that class with no clue as to what i should write. though it's understandable why Strachan won't give us any ideas (it's our lives. not like he knows anything about them), a hint of some sort would be nice. but this is college. gotta think for yourself, yeah? mm. i can't think of any recent thing still. hah, as a last resort, i could write about the Sophomore year thing (even if i talked about it enough to get it out of my system back then).

oh, and apparently, Strachan doesn't believe in closure. fun. so all troubles and heartaches never really end. how much of that is true, i don't know. but i would like to be positive in some way. but hah! i'm the worst example for closure XP so never mind.

so in Acting, we had a quiz on some terminology. easy, simple. yeah. then we talked about our next little performances. "Entering a Scene." fun. no words. just movement and maybe noises. choose a character to portray (swimmer, teacher, doctor, etc). preference color (blue, yellow, green, or red). main color characteristic (meticulous, a leader, emotional, etc). choose setting, actions, time, reasons, etc. individual scenes. though, if we want to, we can ask our partner to help out. yeah, we were assigned partners, the person sitting next to us -_- i got Cody. the guy who talks out loud a lot (i still haven't figured if he just likes to talk or he really wants attention). exchanged emails. partners are there to help, not necessarily be in your scene.

and this was pretty much it. took the light rail home. and you know the crowdedness on a light rail on any given day at any given time seems to be inconsistent. or maybe i just haven't been riding it long enough to notice the patterns.

anyway, gonna shower, eat, do the simple hwk, and then try to think of things to write and speak about (English and Public Speaking). what fun. why couldn't essays be less structured? why must there be so much structure and planning? let those who like to plan plan. let those who don't do it their own way (flow of consciousness) even if it won't grab people's attention. i don't really care. i usually don't care to write or speak to inform or persuade or anything. just because i know whoever is reading it is only doing so because i have to have a grade on it.

but of course, i know what i say will go and bite me in the ass one day (cliche, yes? avoid cliches). or, i dunno, slap me in the face and say "see? learning writing and speaking skills really did help you, stupid!" haha i don't know. i just don't think long-term. you know i don't think long-term. i never really could. or maybe i just don't want to because that's too much work, yeah? mm.

ok, off to find my life lesson and special skill. well, later, you know. yeah, ok, i'm out.